Happiness, is it an illusion?

There has been a line of a movie that has been nagging at me for a few days and all of the sudden at about 5 o'clock this morning, it hit me...A mirror has two faces...with Barbara Streisand (not sure of the spelling)...when she is sitting at the kitchen table with Lauren Bacall (again not sure of the spelling)..the line --- it's not good to leave an old woman alone with her thoughts...that line...it actually applies to every one...one's thoughts can really be scary sometimes...especially when you are battling questions that cannot be answered, which I think we all do....its those "what if" questions where you'll never know the outcome...because the opportunity has passed....if I have learned any lesson this past week....just do it...don't tell yourself there is always tomorrow...because yeah tomorrow will come...but when it comes to saying goodbye or I love you....that other person may not be there tomorrow....so don't wait until tomorrow...

Now on to my topic --- happiness, is it an illusion? I have what I call feel good movies...I think we all have at least one...my are numerous...French Kiss is my all time favorite...that moment when Kevin Kline kisses Meg Ryan on the train and the look on his face when he realizes...she is the one...that he is in love...priceless moment...other feel good movies, the mirror has two sides, may be two faces, mind is going in my old age, Stuart saves his family, Knotting Hill, Bridget Jones Diary, of which I have to get the second movie, and the movie with Nicholas Cage and Bridget Fonda and the lottery ticket, again my memory is going...all movies with these sappy happy endings where love and happiness is always awaiting the viewer at the end of the movie...these movies give hope to people about love and happiness....sure love and happiness isn't always a movie ending but I like to believe its there....In my life...I have filled part of that happiness equation....my boyfriend...a very wonderful individual, sexy, smart, handsome...and best of all he loves me...for all my faults and even after meeting my family ...he is still around...I may not ever get a sappy happy movie ending...because we all know in the movies...money is never a factor...jobs never seem to be a factor...life in the movies never seems to be a factor...fairy tales....but with life....there is no real sappy happy ending...so we take what we can get and we enjoy life with the ones we love....and that is happiness....so may be happiness is an illusion but it is an illusion I want to hold on to and I'm not willing to give it up...